Mondy 21st – Excellent

Today has been a good day, no cravings.  I had my dinner a little later and then my last snack was later, it was timed right so I didn’t get hungry after my last snack.

Breakfast – Oatmeal, whey, peanut butter & hot low-fat milk

Snack 1 – raw carrot

Lunch – Two slices of wholemeal bread, 2 boiled eggs, mayo & 1 slice of thin-cut cheese

Snack 2 – apple

Dinner – Omelet; 3 eggs, 1 slice of thin-cut cheese, a handful of mushrooms & a handful of prawns

Snack 3 – a half of a watermelon

Fear of Failing Found Flawed

In our lives we are afraid of many things, and we each have our way of dealing with them. But I have a theory about fear. You see fear is really a lie.

Let me show you the evidence that I found through my extensive investigation.

It first started when I was in school; I was not the brightest student. I was usually a member of the ‘slow group’ and was not as far on as the others. In that group were the usual suspects – “I can’t do it miss”, It’s too difficult for me”, or “Can we do something a little easier?” One day I woke up and decided that I was not going to talk like this any more; the majority is not always the best side to take. If I was going to be in the slowest group then I was going to be the fastest in that group and I CAN so whatever they give me. Now it wasn’t an instant solution and the effects of it went unnoticed by me for quite some time.

French class “He’s too slow with his other work, learning French would only confuse him even more!” – is what they would say; so they took me out of French class and gave me extra math and English.

Career Councilor – basically someone who asks you to tick some questions then puts it into a computer (emphasis on the computer doing most of the thinking and the councilor just doing the putting part) then taking out the results from the computer and then telling me that I should become a doctor – causing half the teaching staff present to faint. Then off to another career councilor for a second opinion (requested by my principal) to find out that I should stay away from anything ‘academic’ and find a job lifting boxes or licking stamps (much to the approval to the half that fainted).

Science Class – before this day I liked science and I liked the science teacher too, this was about to take a 180. On a study of the human body and how it’s built up the science teacher Mr. H (I’m not that cruel) made a comment that fat can be turned into muscle (without telling us how) then another smart ass (who I also wont name) said, “So Andrew could turn all that fat into muscle?”,

My lovely science teacher replied “Fat chance of that happening!”

That is when I stopped liking science and the science teacher too.

Now the evidence! Fear of not being able to change looms over us all and experiences have been burned into our psychosis that we should try and will fail if we do try. This I have found out is not the truth, and further more this fear is not as big as it seams. Let me explain;

Since leaving school I spend a short ‘unchallenged’ stint working in a supermarket packing shelves. Ok I will say this quick so try to catch up; I went to an interview for an IT position and DIDN’T EXACTLY TELL THE TRUTH, so to speak. I got the job knowing very little about computers and it became a game of sink or swim. And I swam, and swam and kept swimming through 3 top IT companies (including the big one that starts with an M and is usually hyphened MS). Then I got bored with looking at the screen all day and wanted to get into teaching as I am a real people person. I have now been teaching elementary English for the last five years.

Can we have applause for slow groups and career councilors please? Thank you!

The next mysterious event that has lead me to believe that fear of failing is flawed was in 2002 when I made my journey across the world to Indonesia. Lovely country, but they don’t speak English even when they do speak English. (Joking, some of my Indonesian friends speak English very well)

I couldn’t speak a word of Indonesian at all! Ok to keep this post from turning into a novel (prize wining) I’ll cut the story short. After 6 months I could communicate rather effectively with Indonesian. Now in 2008 I can speak fluent Indonesian.

Can you see the pattern? Can we have a round of applause for French Teachers please? Thank you!

Now the darn science teacher’s going to get one too! This is currently under progress. And when I am finished I am going to stick it were the sun doesn’t shine, on my BLOG, where else doesn’t the sun shine?!

So I have concluded that if you take a step up and hug your fears of failing then you too will find them flawed and it will disintegrate before your very eyes. So my friend you need to push forward passed your fears of failing and YOU WILL SUCCEED!


P.s. This post is best read using the voice of Agent Smith from the Matrix.